I had always wanted to create designs as part of my future career. I wanted a job where I can create. Since I was young, I have always liked to create and design stuff. However, I also had wanted to experience other hobbies growing up. I thought that if designing didn’t work out, then maybe I could try to do other things to find my ideal career. But no matter what I do, I always end up designing something. For instance, when I tried to do theater in high school for acting, I ended up being in the tech department designing costumes. I also thought that if I like baking then I could maybe be a dessert chef. However, I only enjoyed the decorating part rather than the long process of putting the ingredients together. I thought that I enjoyed photography, but I ended up liking photoshopping more.
After years of putting my hobby of designing on the side, I have decided to open an Instagram page to share my graphic and bullet journal designs. However, after getting a job (that pays me), I kinda lost my interest in designing graphics and planners. I insisted that I needed money to live (which I do need to eat), so therefore I put my hobbies on the side so I can focus on my academics and job. From there, I constantly ignore my passions for designing, just so I can focus on graduating college (in Spring 2020).
Lately, I have been thinking a lot. If I want to get my dream job, then I must continue what I have started. I cannot push it away as I have done so in the past few months. I cannot use “not having enough time” as an excuse because that’s just pure laziness. The longer I wait, I’m losing more confidence to design something great. Recently, I keep thinking that something great will come into my life if I wait for it. However, the longer I wait, the more time I waste. I need to put in more effort and believe in myself more instead of waiting for someone or something to guide me. Therefore, in the next 6 weeks, I’m going to explore what kinds of designs that I’m interested in and hopefully, that will help me find my future job as a creative director, a graphic designer, a social media strategist, or somewhere in the digital marketing field.
I've been noticing that my creative skills and imagination have gone down, since the last time I have designed something. I am constantly running out of creative ideas and my style has become basic. It looks exactly like everyone else online, which sometimes I do like, but hate at the same time. I like it because it’s a reference I can look back to. However, I hate it because I’m just copying someone else's graphic ideas. I need to find a style that speaks to me, but still looks appealing to the eye. My goal is to improve what I started in the past by learning the basics again and see where I ended up in 6 weeks. I planned to learn new skills from hand-drawn calligraphy to digital graphics.
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